Where My Past and Future Sat With Me

An early Friday morning in Autumn.

09:17am

I sit here in the Red Bull Technology Campus canteen eating on my own. The staff are all in their uniform and casual work clothes, looking really cool.

Everytime I look up I catch someone gazing at me; I’m being looked at as if I don’t belong. I feel I am in exactly the right place.

I just finished the freshly squeezed orange juice and a breakfast muffin and I can’t help but think, this started in a canteen and it’s ending in one. A significantly better one.

That’s the thing about life, you can always become unstuck from wherever you feel… stuck.

I sit in silence trying my best to cool the waters of my mind, my thoughts crash against my skull, leaving me flabbergasted with every wave that hits.

23:19

I sit in my box size room and as I lean into the dim screen of my laptop I can smell baby powder. The aroma takes me back to my childhood and for a moment I close my eyes, and open them again as a 10 year old. I remember being aware of just how capable I am, what results I can yield when I apply myself, school was easy, Sunday school was easy and I excelled in sports…

Baby powder, something I stopped applying after a shower right before bed as I have grown older. My mum still does it, which is why I’m sure I can smell it, sneaking under the door frame into my bedroom. I will continue the practice with my children, our children.

Thank you Lord for my life. I pray for the wellbeing of all those under the sound of my voice, for all those reading the words on this page. It will be well with you… it will be well.