The Boy Who…

I understand. I finally understand.

When I Die - was never meant to be about the tragic culmination I thought my life would come to, it’s always been about dying to myself, dying to my transgressions; being made alive in Christ.

I feel no envy, I feel inspired, congratulatory.

David. I both looked up to you and resented you for years. I thought it was you that made me feel like an imposter. I thought it was you that was given the keys to my life, as a result of my inaction.

Truth is, I couldn’t see myself because I didn’t know myself. Believe it or not, we only TRULY know who we are when we surrender ourselves completely to God.

“As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, 2 in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient. 3 All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our flesh[a] and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature deserving of wrath.”
Ephesians 2:1-3

I understand. I finally understand.

“4 But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, 5 made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions…”
Ephesians 2:4-5

It’s been 10 years I first heard JKYL + HYD on my way to Uni, January 2015. I was watching you, but could hear myself in every word.